ME...

Today felt ...
like I have come to rest ..
Spent the whole of last year running around the world and in my head..
I travelled around the world and swam in the sun..
And walked in biting cold..
Till I was all done..
Made so many friends..
And plans to travel far and wide..
Some places I went to...
Some stuff did not ever materialize...
Some people I just met for a little while..
While some will always stay..
Forever and a day...

It's funny ...but I know I should never make plans..
Because I'm part of a big story , part of this play and try as I may, to re-write my part..
The fact is ! The one above...has already written my role..
And given me what's best for me ...
Whether it's what I always wanted or that what I have yet to experience in me..
Well I have to be the best I can...in this role of life that I have in hand...

So I stay in the wings and when it's time for me to walk on stage...
I walk on with a big broad smile on my face..
I say my lines , I twirl and sing...
And in my head and heart thank God..
That I got through this day as best as I could...

Sometimes, we are told to improvise...
Now that's a test , we always face in time..
Where we meet new characters or people we already knew..
But in new avatars ..that throw us a bit askew...
What we do with this time...
Is what tells us, truly who we are...

I have changed , inside- out, upside-down...360 degrees...or more..
That's something we all do...

And I like and respect this new heart ,soul and mind of mine ..
Though sometimes it's very different from what I used to feel ..
I feel I have very little time left ..and so want it spent with the ones I love the most...
I can't do games...
I hate running around a bush...
Well all that happens with that...is that at some point the game ends and you feel all disoriented running around the bend..

So yes, just want to say what's in my heart, my mind and soul..
And when that is done ,I can sit with my self alone..
Feel solace, feel love...
Feel like I have shared what I feel ,and yes , finally know, it's never about the other..
It's always about me...
Sometimes feel like i'm the only one who has ever felt this way at all...

But all that now happens ..
Is because , this is meant to be..
So I sit and wait patiently for a new day to unfold..
And know it will be full of surprises and beautiful things..
Loved ones, kids, friends and plenty of my own meanderings..

I'm making no more plans...
I'm running no more..
I just walking up my mountain , in a slow and steady pace..
With the music I love playing in my heart and mind..
What else do I need..
God has more than fantastically provided for me..

I walk on, I keep my face in the sun..
And when the sun sets...
And the moon shines in all it's delight..
I reach the top ,to arms open wide...

And under the twinkly stars, we sit and share..all our life's secrets without a care..
So until the sun shines again..
Will smile with love pouring out of my heart...hoping for another beautiful day ...
With loving eyes looking into mine...
And a gaze that makes me feel , loved ,and I don't need no words ...
But just this moment in time ...